I started as a kidney stone patient; I had stones, and still do, for the past 10 years. For the first 5 years I could take my Percocet® and leave them, then about 4 years ago I just could not let them go. I tried many times, but then in the past 4 years I had not only the kidney stones, I had back problems, countless surgeries – I had my right ovary removed, then a few months later a complete hysterectomy, I also had three TMJ surgeries, my appendix removed and so forth, so I became addicted.
While I was addicted it was horrible. I lied to everyone, I stole money, I almost destroyed my marriage. I was living alone; I would stay in my room because I didn’t want to associate with anyone; I was alone.... I tried to taper off many times but I just could not handle the withdrawals at all. In July of 06 I went on a Suboxone® 21-day detox program, with no therapy just the pills. Four days after that program, I relapsed and I was on the journey of addiction for another four long months. During these four months I had a calendar that would tell me when FedEx or UPS would be showing up with the pills that I ordered on the internet. But even the 90 pills would only last 2 days, I knew it was getting worse and came to the point that I just wanted to die.
November 30, 2006, I found a place in Indiana that did a longer program. After being in withdrawals for about 14 hours, I went in. They started me on 8mg. of Suboxone and about an hour later they gave me another 8mg. I was feeling about as normal as I could feel, but the cravings and withdrawals were gone. I stayed at this strict program for five months. I had to go every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to get my pills. On the days I wasn’t there, I had to get a pharmacist to sign a paper showing that I took my meds. On Saturdays I would go to the group meetings. Those I did really enjoy, but with all the gas and time I was spending and trying to work to pay for the $120 a week, it was really straining. So I found another doctor whom now I see once a month, and he writes me a script so now I feel like part of society again. I can work and not have to worry about getting to Indiana three times a week. I am glad that I had such a strict program to begin with ‘cause I really know how to work the program and I know I will be able to do this. Without, I don’t know if I would have had the willpower to do the program like I do know. I am currently down to 4mgs daily and still doing great.
I would definitely tell anyone to try this program – it is a lifesaver. I know it was for me, for I don’t worry about where and when my next pills are coming from. I don’t lie or steal anymore. I am a fully functional person in society now. I don’t worry about wanting to not wake up the next day – I cant wait to get up and get going for the day. But the most important thing is I got my family back. My husband loves me more than anything, and I have a beautiful grandchild that I am enjoying so much. And all my kids are just so proud of me, and I will never let any of them down again.
To suppress the debilitating symptoms of cravings and withdrawal, enabling the patient to engage in therapy, counseling and support, so they can implement positive long-term changes in their lives which develops into the new healthy patterns of behavior necessary to achieve sustained addiction remission. - explain -